The Courage To Be Myself

Of the weakest hours on the strongest days I am proud of myself,

where as before I was not. 

Yesterday marked the 3rd anniversary of me being myself without cigarettes. To some that is nothing, but to me that date - April 7th - marks the very day I had enough courage to just.be.myself. 


I come from a long line of addictive personalities. Trust me when I say I did not get skipped. Gambling, smoking, and drinking addictions are all in my blood. I have faced problems with all of them.


Being uncomfortable, unsure, or unsatisfied with yourself is a big let down. Sometimes it's natural as we grow into our own, but it doesn't make it any easier, does it?


It is feeling weak within that can make peer pressure that much easier to fall into. It is your need for acceptance that makes it okay. Getting it's 'release' makes a potential addiction your goto gal. And so it begins. 


Unfortunately for us addictive personalities, quitting ain't easy peazy. Turns out it takes more will power to stop than it would have taken to not start in the first place. 


Regardless of what brought you to start, look within yourself, to your younger self - and find that child who wished to grow up to be more. Don't be another person who lets yourself down.

Have the courage to just be yourself

Be the one to count on, to look up to. Let your life run it's course naturally, as God intended. 


From the age of 15 to 25 I was a smoker, who lit up more than most. 


My little kid self would not have liked who I became, neither did my little kid sister - and after facing that, it was my time. 


s.l